Talk Jedi to me.

Grocery shopping with the boyfriend. (Taken with instagram)

Tue, 29 May 2012 22:42:29 -0700

Grocery shopping with the boyfriend. (Taken with instagram)

Something feels wrong, I can’t explain it.. I just feel like something bad is going to happen.

Mon, 28 May 2012 18:07:01 -0700

Something feels wrong, I can’t explain it.. I just feel like something bad is going to happen.

Memorial Day (Taken with instagram)

Mon, 28 May 2012 17:30:16 -0700

Memorial Day (Taken with instagram)

Oh OB, how I missed you.. (Taken with instagram)

Sun, 27 May 2012 16:41:54 -0700

Oh OB, how I missed you.. (Taken with instagram)

It’s been one month today :) (Taken with instagram)

Sun, 27 May 2012 14:36:26 -0700

It’s been one month today :) (Taken with instagram)

Adorable girl (Taken with instagram)

Sun, 27 May 2012 12:29:11 -0700

Adorable girl (Taken with instagram)

TJ and I had a little rough patch yesterday, he hurt my feelings...

Sat, 26 May 2012 20:52:00 -0700

TJ and I had a little rough patch yesterday, he hurt my feelings without realizing it. He made it up to me later that night, but it made me realize that TJ and I probably won’t fight like most couples.. we didn’t even need to talk things out. He realized he hurt my feelings and he made up for it as soon as he got home from work, that’s all I needed. If he hadn’t, then I would ave needed to have a talk with him. And if it happens again, then we’ll talk. But I love that he realized that I was upset and fixed it.

I love him so much. Tomorrow will officially be one month :).

Holy shit. I’m having a horrible panic attack right now. I feel like I can’t even...

Thu, 24 May 2012 16:32:06 -0700

Holy shit.

I’m having a horrible panic attack right now. I feel like I can’t even move, it’s that bad.

Holy fuck, I don’t even know what to do. I’m too afraid to stand up.

Taken with instagram

Thu, 24 May 2012 12:47:22 -0700

Taken with instagram

I went home (and by “home” I mean I went to...

Tue, 22 May 2012 19:28:18 -0700

I went home (and by “home” I mean I went to TJ’s) early from work today because I kind of fainted from my migraine. They’re getting so much worse, it’s terrible. My new NP is putting me on another medication called Verapamil and weaning me off the Topamax.. if that doesn’t work in 6 weeks then they have to try the botox on me, which I really don’t want to do. I don’t want to start googling all the bad shit about it yet b/c that’s only going to freak me out about it even more.

On the plus side, sex is so much more enjoyable for me when I can say “I love you” during it.. does anyone else feel that way or is it just me? It’s like my feelings are so strongly tied in with sex that I can’t fully appreciate or enjoy it until it’s been said out loud that we’re in love with each other. It just makes a huge difference to me.

It was funny when he told me he loves me because it was after we had sex and we were talking and he said something funny that made me laugh and I said “I like you” thinking he was going to do his whole “Not as much as I like you.” thing that he does to tease me. Instead he said “I love you” and he said I stopped breathing, and because I was still on top of him, I looked up at him and my eyes got all wide and for 2 seconds he was scared I wasn’t going to say it back, but really he just caught me off guard. Of course I said it back right away, he just caught me off guard and I wanted to look at him when I said it.

On the 27th, it’ll officially be one month and he’s made me happier in the last few weeks than anyone ever has, and I don’t feel like I have anything to worry about with him, he’s not going to hurt me. In fact, he’s still so mad about the guy, Ryan, who grabbed me and tried to dance on me a 2 weeks ago that he won’t even go over to his house to see his friend Ben on Thursday, he’s that protective of me.

I’m just very happy.. if only I could get rid of these fucking migraines.

He told me he loves me last night. :)

Tue, 22 May 2012 07:02:20 -0700

He told me he loves me last night.

You know your boyfriend is wonderful when...

Mon, 21 May 2012 15:18:10 -0700

Me: The doc said this new med is going to make me really dizzy at night..
TJ: Don't worry. I'll spin around in circles when you take your meds so you're not the only one dizzy.

Ice green tea for my migraine B) (Taken with instagram)

Mon, 21 May 2012 14:46:34 -0700

Ice green tea for my migraine B) (Taken with instagram)

Taken with instagram

Mon, 21 May 2012 12:17:12 -0700

Taken with instagram

Oh my poor head.. it feels like there’s something inside...

Mon, 21 May 2012 08:22:49 -0700

Oh my poor head.. it feels like there’s something inside trying to claw its way out. I’m getting so tired of these migraines. (Taken with instagram)

I feel like I’m always at the doctor’s office…...

Mon, 21 May 2012 08:01:30 -0700

I feel like I’m always at the doctor’s office… Or at least always at the neurologist’s. (Taken with instagram)

Tobias is sick so he’s being quite a handful.. Zach the roommate is smoking in the house, so I...

Sun, 20 May 2012 16:18:40 -0700

Tobias is sick so he’s being quite a handful.. Zach the roommate is smoking in the house, so I can’t breathe and my head is killing me.. and TJ won’t be home until 10pm.

Not that I mind it.. well, the smoking is annoying me, but I can’t say anything, it’s not my house. I know Tobias just doesn’t feel well. And I miss TJ, I feel like we’ve only spent a couple of hours together here and there, but no real time together the past few days. I want to take a trip with him soon, even if it’s just a few days.

(via dailyfortune - Instagram Photo Feed on the Web - Gramfeed)

Sun, 20 May 2012 10:24:26 -0700

(via dailyfortune - Instagram Photo Feed on the Web - Gramfeed)

Me asking TJ about food all day long.

Sun, 20 May 2012 10:19:49 -0700

Me asking TJ about food all day long.

Touch is a funny thing. Yesterday TJ and I went to a bbq at my co-worker’s house and one of...

Sun, 20 May 2012 10:04:20 -0700

Touch is a funny thing.

Yesterday TJ and I went to a bbq at my co-worker’s house and one of the guys there that I hadn’t seen since happy hour 3 days before I met TJ made the comment to Jeanetta “What’s going on with Brittany, I thought she didn’t like guys touching her?” because TJ had his arms around me (we’re still at that phase :]). And before TJ went to work last night, he said he was smiling and in a good mood all night, just because I went down on him before he went to work. And like right now, Tobias is back from his mom’s so he’s sleeping between us, but TJ still has his arm across the bed so he can hold me.. it’s not like we have to be touching at all times, but there’s just this feeling I have when we are. I’ve never had that feeling before, it’s like feeling better just from someone’s touch. I mean, when my siblings/cousins hug me or my nephew reaches for my face, of course I feel better. But I’ve never dated someone who could make me feel better. It’s just different with TJ. Even sex with him is different, he looks in my eyes, he moves with me, he knows how to kiss me, he touches me.. just everything is better. I’ve had good and bad sex, but it’s never been like this.

He’ll wake me up while I’m in the middle of nightmare, I get them almost every night, and all he has to say is “I’m here, baby.” brings me closer if I’m not already, touch my face, kiss me, and tuck the blankets around me again and instantly I’m ok, whereas before it would take me hours to calm down from a nightmare. Most of the time he’ll wait for me to fall asleep so he can wait for me to have the nightmare so he can calm me down, then he falls asleep.

I know it’s too soon to say “I love you” but I know I love him. I would just rather say it than have it slip out.. but I don’t want to say it too soon. And it’s only been 3 week, officially. I just now I already do. I think he does too.