Talk Jedi to me.

I read in one of the books I ordered about neurological disorders that I need to wake up each day and visualize all my energy in a jar. Then, as I go through my day, I take out energy as I accomplish each task, and when my energy runs out I need to stop.

I suck at this.

Case in point: Not only did I fall off a 6ft. ladder and twist my wrist today because I kept saying “it’s ok, I can do it, I’m not THAT dizzy”, but I also passed out. I have only been sleeping about 2-4 hours a night for the past 2 weeks because of baby shower stuff, not being able to eat right and avoid “trigger foods” because I was staying at my aunt’s while we did all of it, and I’ve pushing myself way too hard. Then, we worked from 7am to 3am yesterday and we woke up at 6am today and didn’t stop until the party started at 1pm and I didn’t stop until 3pm. At that point, everyone started telling me I looked pale and “weird” and that I should rest, then I got so dizzy I couldn’t walk straight, so I asked my aunt if it was ok if I abandoned the party for a bit to lie down. I don’t know what happened after that because I woke up face down on the floor in my room with my glasses half way embedded into my face, and I feel like crap. So I really need to learn how to stop being like that, which is damn near impossible for me, I have been this way my entire life. I mean, I am BrittanyfuckingMorebello, the girl who can do seven things at the same time while changing my cousin’s diaper, reading a book, cooking dinner, and working from home. I don’t know how to say “I can’t get this done” or “I don’t have time to do this”. I really need to work on this. I can not be falling off of ladders all the time and passing out everywhere.

Anyways, this point of this was to tell you guys that the baby shower turned out amazing.. my cousins took photos for me with my camera since I didn’t have time, so I’ll post those when I get them from her.